When Im with you, I feel so Safe.

TRYING MY VERY BEST ALREADY.!!!!!! :'(

Thu, 21 Jan 2010 13:32:43 GMT

I know i was wrong to tell people about it.
but still it's have been in my heart for very very long till i cant take it.
otherwise i wouldn't had said out.

i had been tortured by it for like so many years!
finnally i thought it's time for me to rest but suddenly it came back!
i know it didnt want to also la.

and i know it's partly my fault, but you cant really blame me what.
it always dont want to change , then you expect me to keep giving in. (i tried many times K!)
you will never understand how i reallly feel, unless you experience what i got from it.
it's a nightmare! i always give in, take whatever it say, and swallow it down without saying any shit.(like a fucking fool!!)

whatmore can i do!!!!!!!! people alrready gave up.
but i really want to change it , so i ignore whatever shit people say and whatever it gave to me.
i continue to care and love it.

i want to forgive and forget but how!!!
but the impression is already left there!
how to change! you tell me lahhh!!!
it doesn't change then how i help it to change!

now i get accused for being a fake person. ( I AM NOT K !!!)

**** i am not trying to act like some ass holy , kind soul.
it's just how i feel.
oh God, this feeling seriously suck!!!! :'(

It's a Brand New Year and It's time to work hard, Kids!!!

Thu, 31 Dec 2009 21:39:50 GMT

WOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's the NEW NEW year!!!!!! :DDDDDDDDD

HOOOOO!!! im damn high but victor & sylvia is sleeping already!!!!! (oppssss)

HEEHEEE!! The noobssss outside are playing guitar with the random guy(Nic).

LOL

*Victor is half drunk , lol so he needs to sleep for awhile . i think.*

Errrrrr, i m dammnnn bored!!!!!!!!!!!!

my post damn kns.

i have decided my baptism name already :)) *farts farts*

*God, i am really sorry that i didn't trust you at the start.
But after going through so much in the Last 1/4 of the year,2009.
i realised that you have always been with me.
There Loving me, Caring for me, planning my path for my future.
God, i want to continue to honor you and serve you , Lord.
but it's my Olevel year, im really worried that i cant.
please help me plan my time well and my mum will allow me to go to church on sat.
God, i know that i must put my trust in you and when i honor you, you will honor me too!
God, please don't let me further away from you like what happen last 3/4 of the year.
God, i will serve you when i finish my Os.
God , i really need you to be with me and guide me through. :)

Jesus, i will live for you! in everything i do! im holding on to you!
Always! Always and Forever!!

Greatest Fear.

Thu, 17 Dec 2009 13:00:36 GMT

During the camp, pastor chua and his wife prayed for me.

I was told to relieve all my Fears to God.

I did.!

BUT, my Fear came back!

Because,

Tmrw is Nlevel's result day.

I am very very very very very worried!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :{

i wan to go up to sec5. .

The only thing that i can do now is to, pray and seek God for help,

pray that through his grace,

Myself & All the Nlevel's student could go up to sec5!

God , please help me / us!

I know you Love us,

as you gave your one and only beloved son to die for us.

Love,

Your Beloved Daughter.

Transformer!

Thu, 17 Dec 2009 12:45:14 GMT

Back from Church camp, it was Fun , Dirty & crazy! :)

I got to know alot of xiao didiS & xiao meimeiS & Adults too.!
(xiao fabian, jing heng & sheng yew is damn ass cute!! :X )

I really learnt alot and it was my first Full camp that i had attended!
(God, I know You Really do LOVE me! ) :D

Change?

Fri, 11 Dec 2009 14:41:54 GMT

Can I NOT have change.?

I dislike changes, Like Seriously Dislike!

Tmrw is churchie camp!

Im happy & sad.

As i will be group leader!! (YEAYEA!! ).

But at the same time i have to see changeS!!!

F that shit!! :(

AH!!!!!!!!!!! whatever la!!!!!

It's time for me to be independent. (Like real)

Just pray that i will not run away from it!

Praise God! :)

Sun, 15 Nov 2009 14:34:50 GMT

Yeah!! Filly is Back!
Im SOOOOOOOOO HAAAPPPYYYY!!!

And now i misss roy!
Roy where are you??!!
Can you come back?? Please?? :(

Chalet tmrw! :DDD

School Fever.

Sun, 18 Oct 2009 11:07:14 GMT

He is so Kawaii neh!!!

I know that this sounds Crazy.

BUT I missSS school !!

I miss my classmates and my xiao meiS.!! :{

ZZZzzzzz...

Staying at home is so boring!!

erghh..
people are preparing for o level / exams,
busy dating, playing computer games, working.

Shitty boring!! :E

I NEEED TO FIND A JOB!!!

Earn $$$!!!
so i can buy alots of stufffSS !!!

Happy Moments.

Mon, 12 Oct 2009 13:16:18 GMT

OMG! my buddy got facebook!
I miss her like damn freaking lots!
Im so happy!! :D

Off to chat with her! :)

I got two interview tmrw. ( Heehee! So Fun! )

Just not that into you.

Thu, 17 Sep 2009 10:09:48 GMT

I admit that i am very evil but tht's only if you are mean to me.

If on that day you totally irritates me till my limit and something bad happens to you after that.

I will give you a sentence, Serve You Right! and i will laugh damn loudly!

I know it sound damn heartless / evil.

But bear this in mind, this is the kind of 'nice' world that we live in!

You be nice to people, it doesn't mean that they will be nice to you too.

Birds chirping & Bells ringing.

Thu, 10 Sep 2009 09:31:37 GMT

Is It i can attend Wedding?!!

I was actually shocked that i can go to the wedding so i ask S.

S said it was because of Me, so we Planet I as a group, can go.

Hmm. But i don't think so loh. But after hearing that i feel so stress! (like what does it got to do with me? X_X )

ANW!

I am going to Ian & angela's Wedding!! :)

I am SUPER Ultra HAPPY!

Ian is my "shifu".
He bring to know God.
He love and cares Alot about me.
He teaches my Alot of stuff too.
He is very Special & Important to me! :)

Angela is friendly & beautiful.
She sounds like angmoh. :D
Although we don't talk much,
I know that she cares about me
&
she is a very very Nice person! :)

Congratulations!

Maybe.

Fri, 04 Sep 2009 10:53:39 GMT

I went Central today, with jeremy, christabel, mark and juncheng. :)

We talk alot of crap at BK. (i think.)

They kept saying i very fat and my fats giggless. :(

Oh! and before we left there, we saw juncheng's sissis.(PrettyPretty.)

I kinda of like this Phrase/sentence. (Quite True)

If you are everything to everybody,

You end up being are nothing to yourself.

Indie Rockstar.

Thu, 03 Sep 2009 06:18:46 GMT

I will be having N level next week. :(

It's suppose to be holiday!! Erghh.

Boring.. I got to go study next week SS N level.

&

I feel like vomiting.
There's like a cube or something in my throat. EEEeee.

STUDY STUDY STUDY!!!

Guys Don't Say Sorry. They Need Their Face Skin.

Fri, 21 Aug 2009 13:29:00 GMT

OMG , Dnt is driving me nuts.!!!!
Im like finding photos for some idiot that is going honkie tmr & leaving us in singapore! :(
oh no! then I have Noone to bicker with for like 4 freaking days. stupid boy.
( You better buy candy for me!! :X )

oo. my cg got New people. Cute guys? HA.
I guess that they thought that im Newer then them! LOL
Irony.

Shit, it's 9plus already. i need to do my dnt like NOW!!!!

*Sandy, i hope you enjoyed yourself! & my flower Chio right! :D

Pet -Sa.

Wed, 19 Aug 2009 14:43:10 GMT

Happy Birthday Sandy Han & Hobart Wong !!! :)
sorry sandy, i cant wish you! :( but will celebrate with you on friday!

Stupid counselor!
moron! close the gate at 7.29! screw you!
i like a fool lah, run with dnt file and my shoe almost flew out!
Don't let me see you. i will kick the shit out of you!!

I had my english paper today.
During paper1 i was having headache, some stupid act cute woman kept waking me up.
But nvm. BUT she said : how can you make it to sec5 like this.
I totally like got the urge to say F*** you lah! But i didn't.
Tsk!!
Do you even know that i was having headache!
Don't jump to your own conclusions lahhh , Bitch!

Up to the sky.

Tue, 18 Aug 2009 13:17:31 GMT

Watched Up in the afternoon today! :)

I is wanna watch Orphan!!

walao, i don't like my mummy!!
she don't let me watch the show about people going to korea!
Screw you!
You don't watch tv , doesn't mean i can't watch right! :(

Im having serious PMS.
yalah, lai ang.

Like a Fool.

Mon, 17 Aug 2009 13:05:39 GMT

Haaaaahahahahahahahahahahhaaahahhahahhahhahhahhahaha!!!!

Screw you Asshole.

Battlefield.

Wed, 12 Aug 2009 13:33:53 GMT

Shit you lahh. why must you always behave like this?
Screw you idiot .
As in why is it when we talk, either one of us will end up pissing the other one off.
I know tht we both very GL but there's a limit to everything.
Like seriously. why cant the both of us talk nicely.?
It's really not my fault this time.
nbc. i really don't understand why cant we talk to each other nicely?! :(

I MISS Marcus Koh!!!!!
My yoyo siao brother, All the Best neh! :)

Sun, 02 Aug 2009 10:58:13 GMT

I think my class photo is like the Best man! :)

It just look so nice .

Fever Go away.

Mon, 27 Jul 2009 11:26:54 GMT

(Red day. :) )

omg, im goin to fail my mock mock! :(

Im having flu again!

act smart go jc hse, no umbrella then go take bus! see lah, act smart.

Bye. im goin to online shopping:)

Walk Away.

Wed, 22 Jul 2009 11:22:00 GMT

I Wonder.

Why do we regret only after we lose that thing or person?

Why do normal people slack but people with some physical problems work so hard?

I shuld start working hard as N are coming! :(

So Hot.

Sat, 18 Jul 2009 14:03:58 GMT

Dinner with ph just nw.

As we were chatting, we started to talk abt ppl tht doesn't have their own mindset. LOL

Someppl just totally agree with what u tell them, but actually they don't knw a single shit tht you are talking abt.

My Fault ? :

Oh, wht have i done today.
Was i crazy / hot ?
As in , I threw metal thing at him and i was pissed with him.
Because he dont believe wht i said, Okay, fine.
But like wtf, im damn serious but you just kept laughing.
When you tel me things, i listen right?! Did i laugh, play / joke?

No matter what, This time, i wuldn't be the first to say sorry. (I swear)

Neutral.

Fri, 17 Jul 2009 14:23:07 GMT

Shit.

I been having mood-swings for the past 2days.

I get irritated damn easily.

If they talked to me , i would just shout Shut up lah. Oh! & I kill ppl with my eyes.

Dnt & tuition tmrw , Dinner with QH :)

oh Wow..

Fri, 10 Jul 2009 14:33:27 GMT

Celebrated mark's bday today.

we ate zi char. lol

i got bored so started to ask ppl to gossip.

But im always the one starting so i said abt someone( Don't so Kpo lah!)

Suddenly We talked abt sick stuff, abt big boobs girl and more. :X

Basket! Tmr is sat. Which is got Dnt & tuition! Nbc!
Shit, im getting extra vulgar.

DongDong is Hurt.

Fri, 03 Jul 2009 13:24:41 GMT

Today, after school was fun. :)

Peiyen all went bishan park to play Frisbee, so i tagged along. :)

But they were trying tp practice .
so me,leon,ps,w didn't want to disturb them so we went the some shelter and we sat dwn.
As usual, Heckeinen started sayin storys about his family. (Quite nice lah.)
Learnt that how different Gods come about/from , kinda of meaningful.

After awhile, leon and ps joined them to play ,so left me, puiyee and wallace.

Conversation:

W: ni de leg hen cute lei.
P:ying wei heng dou mao dui mah!
K: *Laugh Damn loud

Few secs later, me and w started looking at py toes(Kawaii) Lol.

Then leon ran towards us ,then he shouted Hiedong's hand dislocated!
I thought he bluff so i shouted back, don't bluff lah! (But it's True!)

Then we ran towards them to take a look.
F! it's damn disgusting lah, can see the skin and bone off. :X
Soon the ambulance came, and started wrapping his hand and bringing him & peiyen to tts hospital.

Then i went Home, they went back to play frisbee.

Anw, my friend, Abel Lim won bronze for ayg! :D (my friend is so cool!)

Where Best friends are made.

Wed, 24 Jun 2009 12:49:04 GMT

Im finally 16! :)

I nv celebrated my bday like this before!

1st with wt,yt,ashley,val , i was blindfolded. 2nd with my classmates, i was tricked by them.

Some people last minute tell me tht he goin club. i was totally shocked lah!

But Luckily , they were trying to give me a 'surprise'.

We ate at some steamboat place then walk arund & as usual sat dwn to Gossip!

After that we went ph hse, the boys started playing with sticks, they seem as if they nv play sticks game before. LOL

Then we played monopoly! (we kept goin in and out of jail), soon we were quite sick of the game so we play 21. :)

After don't knw hw long then we went ph's room, we sat down and played true & dare. (Fun Fun!!)

Anw, jeremy, christabel, juncheng, clarence, mark, marcus, leon, david, jared.
THANKS ALOT for the BearBear & Porter wallet. :D ( I is very HAPPY!! )