| TRYING MY VERY BEST ALREADY.!!!!!! :'( |
[Jan. 21st, 2010|09:32 pm] |
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I know i was wrong to tell people about it.
but still it's have been in my heart for very very long till i cant take it.
otherwise i wouldn't had said out.
i had been tortured by it for like so many years!
finnally i thought it's time for me to rest but suddenly it came back!
i know it didnt want to also la.
and i know it's partly my fault, but you cant really blame me what.
it always dont want to change , then you expect me to keep giving in. (i tried many times K!)
you will never understand how i reallly feel, unless you experience what i got from it.
it's a nightmare! i always give in, take whatever it say, and swallow it down without saying any shit.(like a fucking fool!!)
whatmore can i do!!!!!!!! people alrready gave up.
but i really want to change it , so i ignore whatever shit people say and whatever it gave to me.
i continue to care and love it.
i want to forgive and forget but how!!!
but the impression is already left there!
how to change! you tell me lahhh!!!
it doesn't change then how i help it to change!
now i get accused for being a fake person. ( I AM NOT K !!!)
**** i am not trying to act like some ass holy , kind soul.
it's just how i feel.
oh God, this feeling seriously suck!!!! :'( |
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| It's a Brand New Year and It's time to work hard, Kids!!! |
[Jan. 1st, 2010|05:25 am] |
WOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's the NEW NEW year!!!!!! :DDDDDDDDD
HOOOOO!!! im damn high but victor & sylvia is sleeping already!!!!! (oppssss)
HEEHEEE!! The noobssss outside are playing guitar with the random guy(Nic).
LOL
*Victor is half drunk , lol so he needs to sleep for awhile . i think.*
Errrrrr, i m dammnnn bored!!!!!!!!!!!!
my post damn kns.
i have decided my baptism name already :)) *farts farts*
*God, i am really sorry that i didn't trust you at the start.
But after going through so much in the Last 1/4 of the year,2009.
i realised that you have always been with me.
There Loving me, Caring for me, planning my path for my future.
God, i want to continue to honor you and serve you , Lord.
but it's my Olevel year, im really worried that i cant.
please help me plan my time well and my mum will allow me to go to church on sat.
God, i know that i must put my trust in you and when i honor you, you will honor me too!
God, please don't let me further away from you like what happen last 3/4 of the year.
God, i will serve you when i finish my Os.
God , i really need you to be with me and guide me through. :)
Jesus, i will live for you! in everything i do! im holding on to you!
Always! Always and Forever!! |
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| Greatest Fear. |
[Dec. 17th, 2009|08:57 pm] |
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During the camp, pastor chua and his wife prayed for me.
I was told to relieve all my Fears to God.
I did.!
BUT, my Fear came back!
Because,
Tmrw is Nlevel's result day.
I am very very very very very worried!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :{
i wan to go up to sec5. .
The only thing that i can do now is to, pray and seek God for help,
pray that through his grace,
Myself & All the Nlevel's student could go up to sec5!
God , please help me / us!
I know you Love us,
as you gave your one and only beloved son to die for us.
Love,
Your Beloved Daughter. |
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| Transformer! |
[Dec. 15th, 2009|08:36 pm] |
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Back from Church camp, it was Fun , Dirty & crazy! :)
I got to know alot of xiao didiS & xiao meimeiS & Adults too.!
(xiao fabian, jing heng & sheng yew is damn ass cute!! :X )
I really learnt alot and it was my first Full camp that i had attended!
(God, I know You Really do LOVE me! ) :D |
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| Change? |
[Dec. 11th, 2009|10:40 pm] |
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| |  crappy | ] |
Can I NOT have change.?
I dislike changes, Like Seriously Dislike!
Tmrw is churchie camp!
Im happy & sad.
As i will be group leader!! (YEAYEA!! ).
But at the same time i have to see changeS!!!
F that shit!! :(
AH!!!!!!!!!!! whatever la!!!!!
It's time for me to be independent. (Like real)
Just pray that i will not run away from it!
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| Praise God! :) |
[Nov. 15th, 2009|10:34 pm] |
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| |  excited | ] |
Yeah!! Filly is Back!
Im SOOOOOOOOO HAAAPPPYYYY!!!
And now i misss roy!
Roy where are you??!!
Can you come back?? Please?? :(
Chalet tmrw! :DDD |
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| School Fever. |
[Oct. 18th, 2009|06:51 pm] |
He is so Kawaii neh!!!
I know that this sounds Crazy.
BUT I missSS school !!
I miss my classmates and my xiao meiS.!! :{
ZZZzzzzz...
Staying at home is so boring!! erghh..
people are preparing for o level / exams,
busy dating, playing computer games, working.
Shitty boring!! :E
I NEEED TO FIND A JOB!!!
Earn $$$!!!
so i can buy alots of stufffSS !!! |
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| Happy Moments. |
[Oct. 12th, 2009|09:11 pm] |
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OMG! my buddy got facebook!
I miss her like damn freaking lots!
Im so happy!! :D
Off to chat with her! :) I got two interview tmrw. ( Heehee! So Fun! ) |
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| Just not that into you. |
[Sep. 17th, 2009|05:41 pm] |
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I admit that i am very evil but tht's only if you are mean to me.
If on that day you totally irritates me till my limit and something bad happens to you after that.
I will give you a sentence, Serve You Right! and i will laugh damn loudly!
I know it sound damn heartless / evil.
But bear this in mind, this is the kind of 'nice' world that we live in!
You be nice to people, it doesn't mean that they will be nice to you too. |
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| Birds chirping & Bells ringing. |
[Sep. 10th, 2009|04:50 pm] |
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Is It i can attend Wedding?!!
I was actually shocked that i can go to the wedding so i ask S.
S said it was because of Me, so we Planet I as a group, can go.
Hmm. But i don't think so loh. But after hearing that i feel so stress! (like what does it got to do with me? X_X )
ANW!
I am going to Ian & angela's Wedding!! :)
I am SUPER Ultra HAPPY!
Ian is my "shifu".
He bring to know God.
He love and cares Alot about me.
He teaches my Alot of stuff too.
He is very Special & Important to me! :)
Angela is friendly & beautiful.
She sounds like angmoh. :D
Although we don't talk much,
I know that she cares about me
&
she is a very very Nice person! :)
Congratulations!
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| Maybe. |
[Sep. 4th, 2009|06:44 pm] |
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| | grateful | ] |
I went Central today, with jeremy, christabel, mark and juncheng. :)
We talk alot of crap at BK. (i think.)
They kept saying i very fat and my fats giggless. :(
Oh! and before we left there, we saw juncheng's sissis.(PrettyPretty.)
I kinda of like this Phrase/sentence. (Quite True)
If you are everything to everybody,
You end up being are nothing to yourself. |
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| Indie Rockstar. |
[Sep. 3rd, 2009|02:10 pm] |
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| |  uncomfortable | ] |
I will be having N level next week. :(
It's suppose to be holiday!! Erghh.
Boring.. I got to go study next week SS N level.
&
I feel like vomiting.
There's like a cube or something in my throat. EEEeee.
STUDY STUDY STUDY!!! |
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| Guys Don't Say Sorry. They Need Their Face Skin. |
[Aug. 21st, 2009|09:14 pm] |
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OMG , Dnt is driving me nuts.!!!!
Im like finding photos for some idiot that is going honkie tmr & leaving us in singapore! :(
oh no! then I have Noone to bicker with for like 4 freaking days. stupid boy.
( You better buy candy for me!! :X )
oo. my cg got New people. Cute guys? HA.
I guess that they thought that im Newer then them! LOL
Irony.
Shit, it's 9plus already. i need to do my dnt like NOW!!!!
*Sandy, i hope you enjoyed yourself! & my flower Chio right! :D |
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| Pet -Sa. |
[Aug. 19th, 2009|10:16 pm] |
Happy Birthday Sandy Han & Hobart Wong !!! :)
sorry sandy, i cant wish you! :( but will celebrate with you on friday!
Stupid counselor!
moron! close the gate at 7.29! screw you!
i like a fool lah, run with dnt file and my shoe almost flew out!
Don't let me see you. i will kick the shit out of you!!
I had my english paper today.
During paper1 i was having headache, some stupid act cute woman kept waking me up.
But nvm. BUT she said : how can you make it to sec5 like this.
I totally like got the urge to say F*** you lah! But i didn't.
Tsk!!
Do you even know that i was having headache!
Don't jump to your own conclusions lahhh , Bitch!
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| Up to the sky. |
[Aug. 18th, 2009|09:03 pm] |
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| |  annoyed | ] |
Watched Up in the afternoon today! :)
I is wanna watch Orphan!!
walao, i don't like my mummy!!
she don't let me watch the show about people going to korea!
Screw you!
You don't watch tv , doesn't mean i can't watch right! :(
Im having serious PMS.
yalah, lai ang. |
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| Like a Fool. |
[Aug. 17th, 2009|09:04 pm] |
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| |  moody | ] |
Haaaaahahahahahahahahahahhaaahahhahahhahhahhahhahaha!!!!
Screw you Asshole. |
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| Battlefield. |
[Aug. 12th, 2009|08:55 pm] |
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| |  frustrated | ] |
Shit you lahh. why must you always behave like this?
Screw you idiot .
As in why is it when we talk, either one of us will end up pissing the other one off.
I know tht we both very GL but there's a limit to everything.
Like seriously. why cant the both of us talk nicely.?
It's really not my fault this time.
nbc. i really don't understand why cant we talk to each other nicely?! :(
I MISS Marcus Koh!!!!!
My yoyo siao brother, All the Best neh! :) |
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[Aug. 2nd, 2009|06:40 pm] |
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| |  energetic | ] |
I think my class photo is like the Best man! :)
It just look so nice .
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| Fever Go away. |
[Jul. 27th, 2009|07:09 pm] |
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| | cold | ] |
(Red day. :) )
omg, im goin to fail my mock mock! :(
Im having flu again!
act smart go jc hse, no umbrella then go take bus! see lah, act smart.
Bye. im goin to online shopping:) |
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| Walk Away. |
[Jul. 22nd, 2009|06:05 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | anxious | ] |
I Wonder.
Why do we regret only after we lose that thing or person?
Why do normal people slack but people with some physical problems work so hard?
I shuld start working hard as N are coming! :( |
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